IVF 0.5

We’ve already hit a hurdle. I went back for the second ultrasound and blood test this morning (day 8 of stims) and things went from not so great to worse. One of the follicles is obviously dominant and is sucking up all the medication. It went from 13mm on Wednesday to 17mm today while the [...]

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IUI#3 is officially a bust

Just as I’d predicted I just got my period. IUI#3 is officially over.
I suppose I knew it wasn’t going to work. But it still sucks really bad. It sucks that I have to go do IVF now. It sucks that we’re already through the 3 IUI’s that we said we were going to do and [...]

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IUI#3: 11dpiu – I POAS and…

It was negative. Of course. I don’t even know why I bothered. I guess because I’m feeling fat and I want to exercise like a mad woman and I thought I should check to make sure that it’s negative first before I do that. It is only 11dpiui and it is technically like 5pm but [...]

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If third time is not the charm

My husband just made me a $50 bet that it would work this time around. I told him I would take that bet. He said he wanted to double down. I told him I’d be happy to give him $100 if it worked…it’s just that I’m really that sure it’s not going to. After the [...]

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Another one bites the dust

(image as seen on datingoutlook.com)
Yesterday was 14dpiui and I started spotting towards the end of the day. It was hardly anything. And so I had hopes that maybe it was just spotting. This morning, I woke up early with high hopes and walked into the bathroom with a pregnancy test as I would have officially [...]

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IUI#1: FAIL

Yep. It’s a bust. 14dpiui and I was visited by the unwelcome visitor. It’s like groundhog day. Always the 13 day luteal phase! I can’t say that I’m surprised but I can say that I’m starting to feel numb about it all. It’s a waste of energy to feel anything anymore. It doesn’t do me [...]

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Waiting for the end of another cycle

(image from About.com)
So i’m just in waiting mode. My temps dropped two days in a row, indicating that AF is just around the corner. Stupid, stupid. It never ever gets easier to deal with. Also, whoever keeps telling us infertiles that going on vacation and relaxing helps with conception, it’s a crock of dog shit [...]

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i’ve got nothing. again.

so as i correctly predicted yesterday, i got my period this morning. cycle #12 is another fucking bust! i knew it wasn’t going to happen this month (just like every other month) but why does it still feel so shitty? i felt like i set my expectations properly this time and still it just sucks [...]

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“try not to stress about it”

yesterday i got my period and i thought, fuck. ugh. this is so typical. but i casually proceeded on with my day. but this morning was not so hot. waking up with cramps is just another slap in the face that indeed, an egg that may or may not have been fertilized did not implant [...]

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the 11th bust

Effort #11 has come and gone.
Sigh. It just never gets easier. I haven’t cried yet this time because at this point I’ve trained myself to not get my hopes up anymore. Except this month was actually different. My period was a day late so I had my hopes up just a teeny weeny [...]

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