Starting Over

I’m thinking about starting a new blog and retiring this one or just calling it quits altogether. The main reason is that I don’t think many people who were reading my blog in the past, want to hear about someone else’s pregnancy…I know I wouldn’t. And I know a lot of people have blog feeds [...]

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Sick

I knew this would happen. While I was desperately trying to hunt down any available H1N1 vaccinations in SF, I got sick. It’s probably not the swine flu because I haven’t had a high fever, but I have probably coughed up a lung (or two) by now. Being pregnant and sick is miserable. Add fatigue [...]

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Interviewing while knocked up

I hate my job and it has become more pronounced and unbearable lately. I’ve only been there three months but I’m more jaded than some of the people who have been there for 5 years. Right before I got the BFP I decided to start interviewing. And then afterwards, I decided to keep going at [...]

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Ultrasound #2

Ever since I lost my dear cat yesterday I stopped caring that I was pregnant. I know that sounds horrible but him and I, we’ve been together for FOURTEEN years and I don’t even know these guys yet…all I could think about was my poor furry baby. I can’t help feeling this immense guilt, like [...]

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A sad loss

I had a horrible sad loss today. My dear cat of 14 years was hit by a car and killed this morning. He has been by my side for so long. Through breakups, heartaches, layoffs, infertility. Everything. He IS my baby and always will be. My friends say this is the cycle of life. One [...]

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Hysteroscopy

Tomorrow is surgery day…is this considered surgery? I don’t know. I still feeling nothing inside. It’s like the desire to have kids all of a sudden died inside of me. Now I can’t stop thinking about how much time I’ve wasted being miserable and pining about having a baby and the fact that I’ll never [...]

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Preparation for IVF but…

(image as seen on Declutter Your House)
IVF information session: Check.
Saline Sonogram on uterus: this Thursday.
Blood test for diseases (me): later this week.
Husband’s SA for morphology: later this week.
Antibiotics and BCPs for IVF cycle: coordinator will call in prescription tomorrow.
I’m hoping by the end of the week, we’ll be done with the remainder of our check [...]

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IUI#3: 8dpiui

I’m in Tokyo now. Hanging out with some friends and waiting out the two week wait far away from home and sadly, my husband. I thought it would be a good distraction but I am far from distracted. I keep touching my boobs to see if they hurt at all – nothing there. I keep [...]

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Another sad world

I discovered a whole new sad blogosphere today. I was at the gym and reading an old edition of People magazine and I came across this article:
A New Baby, a Wife’s Death – and a Dad on His Own
In 27 Hours, Matt Logelin Felt the Joy of Fatherhood and the Crushing Loss of His Lifelong [...]

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Chest pains

No, we’re not talking about emotional heartbreak here, although I get that too sometimes. I’ve got literal, physical chest pains. It all started when I began to take Femara. The first month, I felt it, and I felt it often. The second month I felt it again and was told by my RE to go [...]

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