“Wow, you really are sensitive to Femara aren’t you?” That’s what the RE that saw me today said. According to her, Femara is only supposed to help the growth of one follicle (which I guess is why it’s often used for women who don’t ovulate at all). This time I had a 17mm, 18mm, 14.4mm and 2 x 10mm on the left and 2x10mm in the right ovary with a 6mm lining. She said this looks like a good cycle with 3 viable follicles. I thought maybe the 6mm lining was a little thin but she didn’t say much about that. IUI will likely be Tuesday or Wednesday but I am so jaded. This shit is so not going to work for me. There is no optimism in any of this and I feel bleh about the whole thing. But I’m also in a really shitty mood right now so that probably doesn’t help my complete lack of excitement.
On a separate note, I watched the movie “Baby Mama” last night. It has it’s funny moments and in a few scenes captures how annoying some fertile women can be but other than that it’s a crap movie.
I also want to congratulate Caroline of Caroline…Infertile in a fertile world on her BFP! This has been a very fertile month for my infertile friends so far. Three pregnancies to date. Also there was the birth of a baby girl on Friday, who is the result of many IVFs. So it can happen for us. Lets try to keep the positive attitude everyone. Even though I don’t feel one bit positive today myself.
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Ugh. I am depressed.
I went in for the CD11 ultrasound today and found out that:
a) i have a 22mm follicle (but i’ve got only ONE follicle!)
b) i have a 5mm polyp in my uterus
WTF! I am so fucking pissed off. I’ve never had a problem ovulating so if all clomid is going to do is give me the same ONE egg and then on top of that give me a fucking polyp which I’ve never had before, this is bullshit! The Dr who did my ultrasound said that it probably wasn’t a big deal but she would send a message to my doctor about the polyp. PROBABLY not a big deal…but possibly maybe a big deal? From what I’ve read online, polyps are common but they can affect your fertility. 5mm is not terribly big in polyp standards but still…what wasn’t there before is now there and I blame the clomid! It doesn’t look like I’ll be able to do the IUI this month as I’m leaving for Mexico on Thursday so this will be a timed intercourse cycle. But with the same old single egg and a polyp, the chances of pregnancy have only decreased from a non-clomid cycle. Frustrated does not begin to describe what I’m feeling right now.
Update: read somewhere that 22mm follicle is a mature follicle and that clomid doesn’t necessarily produce MORE follicles but helps with producing bigger and BETTER follies. so fingers crossed that this single 22mm sucker is a superb follie.
Newer Update: The IUI coordinator called and said that I have two follicles that we are shooting to get mature. They are each at 13mm and 14mm right now so she wants to give them a few more days to “ripen” and then wants me to take the HCG shot tomorrow night. Apparently the larger 22mm follicle is considered to be too large and of no hope. I’m not sure why the u/s technician and the IUI coordinator are telling me different things but I like what the IUI coordinator is telling me better! Unfortunately the IUI needs to be scheduled for Thursday but we are leaving town then so it’s definitely going to be a timed intercourse cycle unfortunately.
Newest Update: My RE says that he thinks that I really did only have one mature follicle. Which is it motherfuckers! Stop telling me different things!
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