I decided to start this blog, as a way to document the ups and downs of trying to start a family because:
1) i need an outlet for my emotions
2) this might be useful to someone who is going through the same thing
3) i might just send a link to my friends if i get to a point where i can’t even talk about it without becoming a debbie downer
The story starts here.
Me and the husband got married in December of 2007. We started trying to have kids in January 2008 – yep we didn’t waste any time. That was mainly because when my OB/GYN saw how old I was on my chart (I was 33 at the time), she said, “Oh wow, listen, I don’t think you should wait. You need to start right away”. That really freaked me out and so we really did start right away (now I have a new OB/GYN but anyway). But never in a million years did I think I would make it this far without ever getting one positive pregnancy test. You try so hard all your teenage years to not get pregnant and then when you actually want to get pregnant, you get nuthin! All your friends and everyone you know doesn’t seem to have a problem getting pregnant. It’s just you.
We started just like any newlywed couple does. You enjoy the freedom of unprotected sex. No planning, no specific expectations. You just enjoy. Then 4 months pass and you’ve still got nothing. So you buy some ovulation predictor kits (OPKs) and you start charting your basal body temperature (BBT). To your joy you see that yes you are ovulating (check!), your temperatures do go up after you ovulate (check!) and all seems to be normal. So you start timing sex to optimize conception. But month after month, your period rears its ugly head and you are left feeling like a complete failure. This is where I am at today and this is how I feel every time I get my period. Welcome to my blog.